Un jour

Today I woke up with a bad attitude. I was (still am) sick, tired, and cranky. But God had lessons to teach me today and though I may not have learned them perfectly, at least I learned something.
I have so much to be thankful for in my life. I have the best friends a person could ask for and a loving family that is interested in my life. I am smart, athletic (most of the time), and in good health. A cold is not a big deal, I'm saying I don't have a terminal illness or something like that. I know that I have a God I can run to and rely on whenever I need to. Lately I have been forgetting all this. I have been focusing only on the negative and wallowing in self-pity. What a sad sinful human I am....pathetic. I want so badly to break out of this rut and to rejoice in my Savior and his wondrous love. Hopefully the lessons I have learned over the past few days will help me do this. But it is not something I can do on my own....
I need you Lord. I need You to take everything I hold back and make it something new. Reshape my heart and mind and set every thought and action on You. You know that the plans I have for myself are silly and do not even compare to the plans that you have for my life. I want your plans, your carefully wrought and perfect plans that, while they may bring pain, are so much more than I could ever imagine. For You know the plans You have for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to bring/give me a hope and a future. You know the deepest desires of my heart and you put them there for a reason. you will not leave me disappointed, unsatisfied and wanting with life, You will fill me up until I overflow.

I want Your will Lord. Take my life from this day forward and make it Yours.